Week 5-Master Key Experience- Uh Oh

So,this has been an interesting week.  I am super busy at the full time gig and then, we are in the process of moving my side business. It has been hard to stay on track.  I got a little disappointed and down on myself because I didn’t want to do what I always do. In the past, I have started many things strong, and then life happens, next thing you know, I have unfinished projects.  I am reminded of the statement from week for that says that you do not plan on doing a thing that you should not start because it creates the habit of failure.  That is the habit I am intently trying to replace.  Also, I am trying to learn to be compassionate to myself and others.

I am so opinionated. Many times, I was able to refrain from stating an opinion.  But the conversations that I have going on in my mind…. it is a wonder why I have a hard time truly creating what I want. It is all good. I am a work in progress and I intend to stay in the flow.

Week 4-Master Key Experience-I can be what I will to be

One morning I woke up and I heard myself saying that “I can be what I will to be.”  This increased the will/power in me and the determination that I was no longer going to idly sit by and be the victim in my story.  Strange thing happens when you are pushed to your edge. You get to choose to sit in the corner and bemoan the ways in which you were wronged. I have done that for so many years.  While I could pick one thing to blame this on,  I realize that it was my responsibility to change things all along.  I have always  had the ability to change the tides.  But the missing piece was, I didn’t know this.

Something, finally clicked,  “I can be what I will to be.”   What if this, like most things, don’t work?  Well, I know what I have been living the last several years, what would it hurt to try something different?

In 2010, I was introduced to new thought.  I was so completely obsessed with the idea that I could create my own life’s experience. Every chance I got, I would browse the books on display and choose one to buy and read.  And then a friend introduced me to the Master Key System.   Somewhere during that time, I read the book.  It sounded great, but at the time, I didn’t have the will power to actually do the exercises.  It did not dawn on me the importance of the practice.  Fast forward several months later, I was introduced to an energy healing Modality called Pranic Healing created by Master Choa Kok Sui.  This energy healing modality introduced me to that energy that animates all of life.  And then shortly there after, I was introduced to Native American teachings where I learned that there are laws of creation.  It was not until the last few weeks where I could see the importance of each teaching.  “I can be what I will to be” because I am not separate from the energy that creates worlds, and if I live by the laws of creation, then I will be able to express that energy from within into the world without.  And, if my life is not where I want it to be, I can look around and see that it is just a reflection on my thinking.  And I can choose to think differently.  But I have to continue to choose it so that it can make lasting impact.

This week’s reading was so powerful.  There is a prayer that I do in my spiritual practice.  It is called “I am the soul”.  we pray, I am not the body, the body is just a subtle instrument of the soul.   Now this prayer has so much more depth for me. The “I” instructs the mind. WOW.  I knew this, but now I am really beginning to KNOW it. So instead of judging where I am (as much as I used to)  I pick up the book and read or I say my new mantra.

I started this new week off really wanting to see green triangles.  They seem a little less common then red circles and blue rectangles and yellow squares. I probably see hundreds of those on my commute to work. So I decided that I really wanted to see green triangles.  When I tuned into my Marco Polo group, everyone was sharing their green triangles.  I started thinking, well, gee, why haven’t I seen any green triangles. It was not until the following day that my wonderful group was tuned into me and they had been showing me the green triangles all along.  I laughed at myself, and guess what, I started noticing the green signs on the highway.   I noticed how the top of the A was a triangle. Since it had a green back drop, this made it a green triangle.   Life is so funny! Well, until we meet again!  I am off to catch more green triangles.

Week 3-MasterKey

Week 3 and things seem to be getting worse.  And I am having a challenge keeping up with my tasks in proper timing.  So of course I am beating myself up.  I am becoming more clear on the fact that my habits are running the show.  I had an opportunity to be a witness in full effect today as I heard some news today that would normally trigger me.  Even when I know it is coming, I still seem to go down the same path about feeling bad about myself and my situation.  This time, I still felt bad, but I heard myself telling myself, this is just a habit that I have created.  It doesn’t make it any easier right now.

My 15 minutes sits, I don’t feel like I have been successful in at all.  I found that doing my sits,  I would have longer periods of no thought, and then I would find myself thinking about what I need to be doing for tomorrow or any other of my many thoughts.  I don’t know if this is normal.   But right now, I am not feeling it is going well.  The concept of relaxing is so foreign to me. That is scary. I had texted my guide because I was struggling with my DMP.  I have had the biggest struggle getting into the “feeling” of it. I have not really allowed myself to feel anything but bad for as long as I can remember.  But I want to change this, so I will keep at it.

Week 2-The Master Key Experience

It has been a very strange week.  I found the exercise given very intriguing and really felt up to the challenge of doing them.  I am inspired by my desire to have Autonomy and Liberty and I love the fact that I will be able to manifest this.  I find myself slipping backing into my habits of doubting.  So As in this week’s reading, I am having to keep watch on my thoughts.  That has proven a little more challenging then I thought. But then… I do have a habit in being.  So much so, I have not gotten to the point where I am enjoying reading the exercises, yet.  The sitting exercise was very interesting…. meaning, I didnt like it. 🙂  Just being honest.  The real reason I did not like it is because I realized that it was almost impossible to inhibit thought completely. I found myself thinking about not thinking. LOL.   GOSH.   Well, I am still curious enough to keep moving forward.  Looking forward to next week’s work.

Week 1-Master Key I have heard this before

It is interesting, I am into metaphysics for the last 8 years.  One of the first books I purchased was the “Master Key System.”  Back then, the ideas sounded lofty and I believed what was being said.  And yet,  I never shifted things in my life.  8 Years later, I am realizing that even though I have heard these principles before, I never consistently applied any of  what I learned.  I am so excited to get the opportunity to Participate in an organized structure manner of exploring the “Master Key System”  Not only that,  but there is a group doing it together… and there is accountability.  I am looking forward to seeing how this turns out.